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Engine of Hell

by Emma Ruth Rundle

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I heard ERR play this album live in Feyzin: now I remember the concert each time I listen to it. I have never heard anyone who is so much better live than on recordings. And the recording is really very good on it's own. Favorite track: In My Afterlife.
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HUMN this is the most honestly sad and powerful album I heard in years... and in the mean time thank you to be the company I needed in rough times. Favorite track: Blooms of Oblivion.
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MrJelly Dark and emotionally heavy music that has a tonne of replay value despite its relatively sparse instrumentation. The songs shine individually but its best consumed as a whole, one little rollercoaster priming you perfectly for the next. My favourite discovery in quite some time. Favorite track: Body.
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1.
Return 05:16
A rich belief that no one sees you Your ribbon cut from all the fates and Some hound of Hell looking for handouts The breath between things no one says Author of a Poor Design No one to steady your hand All things lost in their own time Where have you gone to? Return to me Return again Return to me Return again, hey Some demimonde astride the crossing You’re reaching for a life-like face You stumble to the cellar door and Your fragments glitter the eyelids of a child Author of a Poor Design No one to steady your gaze And the things a pound of flesh can’t buy Where have you gone to? To return to me? To return again? Return to me Return again
2.
Judas come close to me Visit in visions Tell me the story of how you swing like an actor in the greyest of gardens your tongue hanging free from you mouth Down at the methadone clinic we waited hoping to take home your cure The curdling cowards, the crackle of china you say that its making you pure And just like Flowers for Algernon something's diminished There’s a love like you've never known pinned to your finish One, two, six underfoot and you will rise And in all of your blooms of oblivion I love you See? Maker, I'm close to you to deal your departure to make sure you’re nailed to the ground and all of the glamours, of treacherous traitors have all run away from you now I will stand over you to breathe in your vapor as pieces and parts, they dissolve You plead you as failure You wait for a savior but leave knowing nothing’s resolved And we bring flowers from Albion up to your vision Hold back the love that you've never known you've only this prison Straight to the hangman’s noose, are we born this way? Handing down a fistful of sorries you will never say I love you See? Say
3.
Body 05:27
Come if you’re able tears like the leaves fall down scenes from your table we’re moving the body now Some silence has lifted you from a world unkind a shroud we have fitted a sick sad world that you leave behind but I hear you say… “You know my arms are always around you” Moving the body now we’re moving the body now A book, a piano gifts from the muse, in your selfless way my teacher, my feeder this red hair’s going nowhere since you went away I dream her, I see her The softness of the hands I'm holding in my mind If only I could keep her I'm still a little girl that needs you one more time You said your arms were always around me I’m moving my body now just moving my body now though I’ve been reaching out through all the years, and the years go by though I can’t feel you now - still I can’t feel you near my side I can’t feel your arms around me I can’t feel your arms around me anymore
4.
The Company 04:11
So loud, that the company I keep is just mine It’s the center of my troubles And white is the color of the noise it’s making And why I drink myself to sleep Soak Divide Deform Defiled, I So quiet, the melody I sing that’s just mine Is the center of my troubles And life isn’t tethered, just a toll that’s taking And why I go to sleep to leave here Soaked Divide Deformed Defiled Soak Divide Deform Defile Ether’s way out The soul is so much brighter now, without you Ether’s way out The soul is so much lighter now, without you Ether’s way out The soul is so much brighter now, without you My whole life, some dark night, is so much brighter now, without you My whole life, some dark night, is so much brighter now, without you
5.
Dancing Man 05:23
time… sweeps… remembering you Spin in the garden, in roses not red Peach were the petals there instead Poised in perfumes, anointed in blue The orphans can smile for an afternoon Keeps a balance, my gentlest friend I know you from Adam, I’ve known you All I’ve known of love There in summer and there again in spring Shoot me down Chinatown And you’ll wear makeup and I’ll hide my mess The urchins parade in their Sundays Tear of Sodom and tears wept for Troy But for you, friend, of joy I see you there, Dancing Man I knew you could sing All of your poetry All love All I know of love
6.
Razor's Edge 04:10
Spending all my money as the petty cash of youth runs out Burying my body but the dogs keep digging Lay around Lazarus, roll the stone - that I might feel Just enough for both of us to let me rise through the eye of the needle If you have something left, don’t be holding out If you have something for me, don’t be holding out ‘Cause I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge just to feel its power To be heathen in the gasoline for cheap heat of an hour I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass slippers at the last supper There’s no need to check the weather as my winter’s never over If you have something for me, don’t be holding out Pass it to me honey as my sweetness and my lights dim down Numbing out nightmare but I just keep grinning Play it down, Magdalena, no one knows that you've come undone Looking down the mirror at the demon that I have become If you have something left, don’t be holding out and if I have something left, I’m sure I haven’t found it But I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge just to feel its power To be heaving in the gasoline for cheap heat of an hour I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass slippers at the last supper There’s no need to check the weather as my winter never ends I’ll be dancing on the razor’s edge then I’ll be spinning like the girl in glass then If I had something left, I still haven’t found it If I have something left, I might never find it out
7.
Citadel 05:39
There is a fortress in my heart I try to go there in my dream aren’t any songs for me to sing not in the fortress of my heart Here comes the weight on me again bone by piece I’m bricking me over tier by tear, I wave to you… on my way down most of my life I was trained how Just to lay down and never ask why I was trained how Just to stay down where its safe now - safe now There’s a destroyer in my blood who's handed down and waits for me I have no air, I cannot breath with the destroyer in my blood Here comes the weight on me again bone by piece I’m bricking me over tier by tear, I wave to you… On my way down most of my life I’ve been trained how Just to lay down and never ask why I stay down where its safe now am I safe now? am I safe now? Here in my citadel of self I can be safe.
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Taken to task in some Engine of Hell I lacked the toll to cross the river there someone forgot to put the sterling on my brow Gone from a world, that I might sail Taken to plow off this debt somehow Somewhere in the outer planets I think that its cold but I'm not sure that this is my body I was robbed of my mask in some engine of Hell I have a feeling that I might be here a while you might want to call in a maid to help keep you clean But I remembered all of your lines from life And told them to my keeper He said that you were funny but a liar Some dark deceiver Some dark deceiver. Now I'm free drifting though Saturn’s debris things cut and floating through a blackness that never seems to end I think if I willed it, I could return home But the warmth of the sun, it has become searing I have a feeling that I might float here a while Rift and directionless, that I might spin myself But I remembered all of your lines from the living And told them to my nearest keeper A distant star there was laughing Said you were funny and now we’re free And now we’re free.

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released November 5, 2021

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